You're in My Veins (The Final Part)

You're In My Veins(The Final Part)

You have always talked about the final one; 

A world where it would be only us and us alone, 

This was the dream, 

This was the goal.

Who knew that it wasn't gonna happen; 

With the people around us, 

thwarting our feelings with force, 

With the pool of tears around us and with welled up eyes we parted ways. 

it wasn't easy to survive, 

With each day every breath I took, 
Instead of breathing oxygen,
it was poison that I inhaled. 

We were drifted apart; 
By the very people that we cared about, 
With the alcohol and the cocaine being my key to solace, 
I always think of us like the way we used to be. 

I tried hard not to undergo the pain; 
But it wasn't meant to be, 
With each breath being heavy, 
And your memories hard to forget. 

I drenched my soul in smoke and alcohol;
I thought it would help me erase you from my mind, 
Erase the memories we created, 
And the stolen kisses that we shared. 

As I sit here today in complete darkness; 
All i can think is about you, 
it feels as if you are still here,
Haunting my existence with the curse of your memories. 

I sit smoking away with a glass of my blood by my side, 
The wrist hanging dry over it, 
And the veins open for you to get out of my soul, 
The cuts now cover my skin, 

The moon weeps tonight; 
On seeing life drain out of my eyes, 
I am left thinking in my delirious state about you being with me, 
With the cocaine and alcohol taking its toll,
All I can think about is your ghost leaving me forever, 
With the last drop of my blood dripping away I see you in my veins.     

The Promise

The Promise

As I sit by the river;
I think of the stories that this river has, 
Some sunk in the very depths, 
And some had floated. 

Let me tell you a tale;
Of a love story that sunk, 
With a few stories down in the depth of the rivers, 
Just like the pebbles that now rest at the bed. 

He was sitting in the park; 
Trying hard not to battle his mind, 
With the thoughts of his past haunting him, 
His eyes had laid eyes on something which had caught his eye. 

She sat there in front of him; 
Feeding the pigeons with an innocence in her eyes, 
But something was unique about her, 
That captivated his attention in her. 

The scars on her body had a story;
And the pain in his eyes were immense, 
The world around them seemed still, 
As their eyes were speaking. 

In the world where religions and caste; 
Colour and race were everything, 
They had fell in love with the just a sight, 
Ignoring the cynical stereotypes.

Guess it wasn't enough; 
With the world feeding on their souls, 
Trying to break their bodies, 
And the young souls into fragments. 

But luck had its way;
The lovers were distanced and the world came in, 
With the scars on her soul and the pain in his eyes, 
They were stolen from each other. 

After ten years;
They meet once again,
And the love still warm enough, 
this fragmented love story was complete, 
Only to see them holding their hands and breathing their last. 

They had fulfilled their promise; 
To be together in the end, 
When no one in their lives would matter, 
Only love being with them forever.

What If We Ruin It All

What If We Ruin It All

I had struggled to get hold of my life;

With the world acting like a planet full of sinners, 

I never thought my faith would ever be restored, 

And my heart would ever feel this way for someone. 

That winter morning was different;

While all the people were trying to find their staggered steps home, 

You were there looking like as perfect as a snowflake, 

Just like a fairy straight out of a young kids dream. 

I was mesmerised and inert to everything around me; 

We met the next day at a meeting, 

Who knew that fate could play games like this, 

And we would then be more than friends.

From the promises to never leave each other's side;

No matter how extreme it would be, 

I promised you a life full of hardships and hurdles, 

Only to reach us at the top. 

We had loved each other since years; 

But never accepted it and ignored the heart, 

Our hearts had been playing a game all together, 

While the souls chose to suffer. 

You were my only friend; 

Who tried to tame me down during my anxieties, 

And when I at a weak moment couldn't contain it, 
I told you I liked you but never admitted that I loved you.

And then you lashed out; 
it had been 8 years since we knew each other,
And you never told me how you felt, 
You relapsed and hugged me 

We shared a moment which we never should have;
Accepting how we felt only to be feared all our lives,
Asking ourselves one single question if,
What if we ruin it all. 

This Is What it Takes

This Is What It Takes

As today I take the stand;
and see you the opposite side,
Taking the blows for our failures, 
With every accusation I take.

I saw the shallowness in your eyes, 
The love we had fading into the smoke of doubt, 
Why did it had to be this way, 
In public airing our dirty laundry. 

I remember the first time we met each other, 
In the bar when I was surrounded with bodies, 
But was all alone in the sea of the crowd, 
You had me at that moment when you smiled at me.

Each day we couldn't let a day go by, 
Without talking to each other,
Both of us knew what we had was distinctive, 
Hours we used to spend with each other without a flinch. 

Now as years have passed, 
Our perfect fairytale shattered, 
The divorce was evident, 
But we tried to fight it. 

The hours of therapy down the drain, 
The late night dinners are just a fragment of our life, 
You had a total eclipse of my heart, 
Now the with the shadow disappearing. 

All I can think is how to keep you happy, 
To keep that dove like eyes to stop casting its spell upon me, 
You had taken everything from my soul to my body, 
And as we write the final chapter to our book. 

I am left here thinking, 
What I had done to transform the tender little heart, 
Poisoned with hatred, 
And as I see you go out of the court, 
Leaving me for one final time, 

You would know I would always love you, 
And to see that smile that won me over, 
I guess it had to be this way to see you happy, 
I guess this is what it takes. 

The Sunset

The Sunset

While the world slept;

A lost soul was waking up, 

To a world which was pure, 
With the future still waiting for you, 
Just you.

With the worldly logics and norms;
Beyond your understanding, 
With the spirit in you like a caged bird, 
You had to endure the norms and the protocols of this world. 

The bird in you took a blow;
Bleed till it couldn't raise its wings, 
You were there amongst us, 
Masquerading as something you were never meant to be, 

You always wanted to fly into the sunset;
With dreams in your eyes,
Lost in the clutter of protocols and rules,
Saw you flutter in frustration. 

The wearisome life you lived;
Took a turn when everything you work to be.
Became a reason for your collapse,
Thinking of you as something else. 

She fell in love with you; 
For the person you really were, 
She saw the bird in the cage, 
Choking on the person you were trying to masquerade as. 

You erupted upon what you had with her;
Feeling naked, 
Fathoming upon the very thought, 
That how could she see through you. 

Everything around you seemed grey; 
But slowly the shackles started to rust, 
And the bird saw a crack in the cage,
With one big blow it was unleashed to a new world.

With freedom being the new flavour;
Your colours started to fill this black and white world,
With destiny playing its best, 
You fly out to bring the one back.

Watching the bird fly out in the sunset;
You try to find her daily in your dreams,
As each day the sun rising, 
Your quest to find the one to be your companion cements.

She had to go;
Playing a role in your story, 
Just to set your soul free, 
And your dream alive. 

While you pondered about her whereabouts,
She was there torturing herself for leaving you, 
No mattered how hard she tried you never forgave her, 
One day there will come a time, 
When she would enter back your life, 
Just for you to tell the world another story. 

Colour My Heart

Hope

As December sets in; 

And the snow falling,

The green grassland turning white,

Couples holding hands, hugging with love in their eyes.

Here sitting comfortably in my home;

Watching the snow set itself, 

Thinking of each and every moment, 

That I had spent with her. 

She was everything to me;

Ever since I had laid eyes on her,

The world around me seem non existent without her,

Fate had never been too kind to me but that night it was.

I never thought we would ever cross paths;

But we did, 

You came into the party looking ravishing, 

Every set of eyes was fixated on you.

I knew I never had a chance with you;

But you did have a chance with me, 

You came to me and the magic happened,

From small talks to long walks in the evening. 

I was a convict and you were a sinner;

Who would have thought we were made for each other, 

Those big droopy eyes still capture my soul, 

Whenever I looked into it. 

And like that the magic passed;

You had conned me for my heart, 

And today as I sit with the tawny liquid in my glass, 

Sipping down the pain in my veins. 

As you had left me that day;

It wasn't only my heart that you stole, 

But it was more than that, 

You took away a part of me, 

As I think about you in my final moments;

I can sense you near me, 

Looking at me from the shadows of the night, 

Smiling at me giving me hope, 

That maybe one day we would reunite.

With hope in my eyes, 

I can see you guiding me, 

Telling me that this is the place where I give it all up, 

As for your love I have risked it all. 

Somebody's Me

Somebody's Me

With the time passing by 
And my mind running like a gazelle in a field 
Is held captive with your thoughts 
How could a person imprison the human mind 

With each passing moment 
I see my life in troubled waters 
With a trenchant storm waiting to feast on me 
Who had wondered that the world would change 

You came into my life 
When I stayed in gloom 
With the darkness being the fuel to my soul 
And then in the vortex of the storm 

A little rose that came into my life 
You tried to stop the storm consume me 
And had shown me the world of light 
A world so pure that vengeance and reprisal do not exist 

But then till how long does a volcano lay dormant
You promised to be by my side 
No matter where I belong 
You had kindled my soul 

Unleashing the demon in me to take control 
You left me in ashes thinking I would not survive
You were like gravity 
When you were in my life 

Now it is funny how my soul levitates 
Spellbound by your charm 
Trying to find you in the present 
While you are there in the past 

How could one person hold the key to your destruction 
And today as I sit here watching the world burn 
Trying to find you back and take my soul along with you 
I wonder if you wanted me to disappear 

And as I fight this final battle 
With the sword thirsty for blood
And eyes bloodshot 
Tears rolling down my face 

I ponder if this is what fate had in store for me 
As is imagine you watching me fighting against the world 
I hope you see the man who loved you 
And understand that there is somebody who still loves you more than himself 
That the somebody's me