Thursday 29 March 2018

Out of My Head

Out of My Head
Dark and quiet was the night, 
With just the soft rustling of the leaves, 
And the wind kissing my face, 
I stood there looking at the stars from where I fell, 

Broken and blown away from the things, 
That transpired in the day,
Throwing away the things that do not matter to me, 
Never did I wonder that you would come into that pile,

I was just a novice when you first saw me, 
Lost yet the zeal inside my soul won't fade away,
Struggling on and on with the way the things were at the firm, 
You saw something in me and it just was refreshing to watch. 

Within no time I was in the centre stage,
Running the show like it was my own backyard,
Enthralling everyone with my wit but it needed some finese, 
You knew that in no time I would be ready for the fight I was to fight. 

Years passed, 
We grew old and wise, 
Not in age but in stature, 
We were among the stars.

Power and back stabbing went hand in hand,
Snatching what was ours from the hands of the vultures,
Who stood there and looking to fulfill their own interests,
Fearless and unfazed with the outcome we buried them to the ground.

Till one day I made an error in judgement,,
Being a part of a con which you missed to catch out,
A slight play in motion which was just a perfect game,
Until you would snoop around.

Caught in the crossfire I stood,
Backing you up with my loyalty,
Because for me you were family and no one turns their back on family,
Just then my mistake became public,

With the use of the very cradle that we were a part of,
You became a target,
Knowing that it will bring down our house of cards, 
Deciding that you would be throwing yourself under the bus.

Believeing that the firm would be in our hands, 
In our own control, 
You decided to walk away, 
It wasn't until a few year that you would resurface under unfortunate circumstances.

A threat on the firm loomed,
and you knew it would drive us down,
Deciding to sign off on a satement,
Which would descredit you only if I sign off too,

Hard truths being told is not difficult, 
But telling a white lie and things that should have been said about me, 
Are now gonna be stuck on you forever, 
Ready to take the fall just to make me float.

I stood as I saw you leave, 
Feeling a crashing of the things that we built.
And the shattering of the dreams that we dreamt, 
My soul burning down like a star falling from the sky. 

I stand here saying things about you, 
Which should have been said about me, 
Still trying to live with a guilt which would not get out of my mind,

Standing at our favourite spot,
I look at the stars,
And wondering about how life would have been,
Scarred I stood in the rubble,
Like a little child I searched for you,
It wasn't until then I realised,
That you were gone,
 
Gone away just to protect me,
And making me accept the hard truths.