In My Veins Part Two (The Untold Story)

In My Veins- Part Two ( The Untold Story)

The Fire Brigade was there,

Right outside the door of what was our home, 

People around it as if they were waiting for a show to start,

Somehow after seven long years I still remember how our door looked. 

Funny how we ended up ruining each other, 
I had been lost all the time when I was with you, 
Or maybe I was always lost till I left you,
When the one you loved with all your heart thinks of you as a stranger.

You called me a stranger who destroyed you, 
But what about the moments when you needed to be rebuilt, 
The moments when you had given up on your dreams,
Right now as I see your charred body being carried out nostalgia hits me. 

I thought I would live and survive without your shadow cast on me, 
Living away from you all this while, 
Trying to figure out my purpose in life, 
You haunted me in my memories. 

That gaze of warmth that you had, 
Once you had set your sights on me I was all yours, 
You became my friend and then slowly everything, 
You took all the vacant space that there was in my heart only to make me fall. 

I always thought that a relationship had two people, 
But in our case it was just me who was blind in love, 
You told the world about my flaws and my cold-hearted personality,
But never you told them the things that led to it. 

I cried to you, 
Asking for you to give me your time, 
The time that you devoted to the unknowns, 
Solving their problems but never mine. 

And now I see your body, 
Fell the last cuts that you had cut, 
Trying to escape from the ghost of us from our past, 
When I stepped out of your life, 
You life went reverse. 

You painted me as villain that I never was, 
Telling a tale to the world which wasn't the whole truth, 
Who was there when you were battling your depression, 
Who was there  when you needed a family away from home. 

Or I thought that I was your family, 
You be-ratted me, 
Made me feel expendable and then the final act, 
Ignoring your heart to be lost in the worldly charms. 

I had to go away, 
You thought it was easy for me, 
What about the sleepless nights and the tear drenched pillow, 
About the absence of a soul from your body. 

I sit inside the house, 
The house where we first met, 
Locking myself in my favourite room, 
Smelling the light fragrance of the inflammable liquid that you had used. 

And there I relived us for one more time, 
Smiling as a drop of blood releases itself from the grasp of my body, 
With a small gash on my arm and a glass of whiskey I stood, 
Smoking the last cigarette of the pack, 
Throwing the lit stub to the liquid. 

With your smiling face asking me to follow you, 
The flames engulf my body, 
Releasing a part of your soul that was stuck inside me, 
With you now already gone, 
I feel free in this inferno, 
As you were always hidden, 
In my veins.

In My Veins (The Untold Story)

In My Veins (The Untold Story)

When you have traveled a thousand miles,

In the scorching sun over your head,

It is normal to have a conflict with reality, 

But then when sometimes the flashes from your past don't let you live. 

You had said your part, 
Now it is my turn to tell, 
Tell the world I wasn't the mean girl,
That you made the world believe. 

It was a smooth ride, 
As if it was ripped off from a script,
Boy saw a girl at a party, 
And then slowly they get into a relationship. 

But what if I told you, 
The relationship wasn't the way it seemed,
It was more darker than a moonless night, 
It was not the spring but more of the harsh cold of December. 

I never meant to leave you, 
Never did I imagine myself walking out of that door, 
But you made me do it,
And painted me as a villan

You are dead now, 
With a razor cut on your wrist,
The blood coming out,
Making the floor look like a battleground. 

You tortured me, 
Beat me in public, 
Threatened my individuality, 
Making me your serf.

Never leaving a chance to disrespect me, 
But making me used to you around,
Now with your blood flowing down the apartment,
All I can see is the pain you had.

But then you made me a junkie,
Got me hooked on your presence,
Ensuring that your soul had entrapped my spirit,
And forcing me to live like a zombie. 

I tried hard to move on, 
Getting a new job, 
Moving to a different city, 
Years had passed and then I saw you again. 

I always had my eyes out for you,
Made sure that you were safe, 
Little did I know,
That my absence would have made you suffocate.

Now you're gone,
To a land where there is no returning from,
Scarring me for life, 
With your death on my hands. 

While I think of you, 
I see the razor that you had used,
Feeling your pains from the gashes you had, 
Replicating them on my wrists. 

I had to free myself, 
From the people around me, 
People who questioned me about you, 
The blood that rushed through my veins would remind me of your soft kisses. 

My wrist would remind me, 
Of the way you held my hands during the winters,
The skin would remind me of you caressing my back,
I could not fathom my life knowing that you are gone. 

As the seconds passed, 
Darkness would slowly welcome its lost child,
With my blood mixing with yours,
Meeting its captors after ages. 

I see my eyes shut, 
With the image of your face in front of me, 
Asking me for one last chance, 
With the last drop dripping from my wrist, 
I see the last of your memory flood out of my soul. 

With my body cold, 
My eyes shut, 
My breathing fades away, 
As all I knew was that I had you in my veins. 

I Wanna Grow Old With You

I Wanna Grow Old With You 

Time passed and the seasons changed,

Life is like the weather, 

Sometimes ruled by the clouds, 

And sometimes a battlefield for a thunderstorm. 

Never did I in my mortal life thought, 

People in this fucked up society,

Would masquarade the mask of emotions,

And slowly stab me in the back.

But then you came into my life, 

Like a tornado ripping apart a peaceful garden, 

My heart was blown away in pieces, 

You were the dark magic done by the witches to haunt my life.

Whenever I saw you smile, 

It was enough for me lose my heart, 

And be swept away by the charm that you had which no one ever saw,

But then who knew that the cause of my destruction would be my heart.

The emotions that I had kept bottled up,

Memories that I locked away in a safe, 

All were opened up, 

Just because of you. 

Now it has been five years since we first met,

The rain still reminds me of the night when you came back,

You decided to let all your fears go and accept mine as your own, 

Now I am here asking you to be with me,

To look me dead in eyes when I saw this.

Never did I think, 

That I would fall back in love, 

Never did I think,

That my heart will start a rebellion behind the cage that I locked it in, 

I may have been breathing, 

Yet I was never alive,

But now I see things clearly.

So here I stand,

Asking you at the very place where I first saw you, 

If you would let me have the honour, 

To grow old with you?

 

True Love Knows No Ending

True Love Knows No Ending

Remember the time when we read fairy tales, 
Waiting to see a happy ending,
Imagining our lives in the story,
Looking for a way to see the happiness on the other side.

All it took one day for me,
To travel down the path seeking for that feeling,
Success and money were just materialistic things,
But the world only worked for this. 

I worked day and night, 
Just to build a corporation big enough, 
To make the world bend to my wishes,
Poverty did take out the only emotion that I could sacrifice,
Happiness was the thing I sacrificed. 

 You and your love for flowers and the colours, 
Had an impact on this black and white world, 
You were the artist,
Everything else was just a canvas. 

The colour filled room, 
Did make me wonder who created this,
You were here busy with a handful of lilies,
That you forgot I had entered my suite.

From there on it was just a story for the ages, 
You were just a lost traveler,
Seeking for a place to be called home, 
While I was just a disturbed soul seeking solace. 

It was only time that I fell for you, 
I knew that you also felt for me,
Yet something was stopping you,
It was like a cell in which you kept your soul.

The man who owned you,
Mistreated you and made you suffer alone in this world,
Still called himself your husband,
Marking a bull's eye on his back with his skeletons from his past.

Willing to make you suffer,
And drown you in your guilty conscience,
Turned himself in for the crimes that were next to treason,
He knew he was innocent but took the liberty to chain your soul again. 

You ran back into my life,
Asking me to help clear his name,
For whom I was the man who stole you away fro him, 
Your misty eyes were like the piped piper's song and I was just a kid following your tune. 

Searching every corner of the earth,
Only To find the answers in land far away,
A step on a mine was its cost,
It was like a barren land when I paid the price.

Three months later he was out,
Searching for you all over the place,
Only to be haunted by the ghost of his lies and deciet,
Trying to shackle the soul whic I had unshackled.

Attempting to cage the bird that I had freed,
You taking your final journey,
To search for my soul that became your home,
Becoming free from this mortal world.

True love knows no endings,
Neither did ours,
We did meet again,
And this time it was forever.

Lighthouse

Lighthouse

Dark enough to even make the ghosts quiver in fear, 
I stood at the top of the lighthouse, 
Waiting for you to come, 
And end this saga for once and for all. 

The wounds still fresh, 
And the blood still trickling down, 
Trying to figure out, 
Where in this life that I have stepped a wrong step. 

That night when I thought someone following me, 
Like a bat, I could only sense something around me but could never see it,
A happy life is a myth, 
That night just was an evidence to prove it. 

Married since fifteen years, 
Inseparable throughout the cyclones and the tornados that life presented us,
but it was one night that changed my life forever, 
You had changed it for the worst. 

Stabbed in the alley I saw him, 
With lifeless eyes that could even make a corpse throw up, 
the blood flowed on the floor as if someone had turned on the faucet, 
His face was just blank. 

Shuddering in fear I saw your message on the wall, 
Warning me that you're gonna get me, 
Bringing out the dead skeletons from the past and throwing them at the feet of the present, 
I knew it there and then that it was you again.

Waiting here where it all ended or so I thought was the end, 
I see you coming from long away, 
Just to finish the chapter that you started,
With just a gun with one bullet in the chamber being my only form of defense.

But with one swift blow,
The gun fell far away,
Fighting for my life, 
I tried to hit you hard enough, 
Make sure you plead for your life.

Just like Poseidon's trident, 
I found the weapon lying there, 
Asking me to shoot you and to end this saga,
But who knew that it was just something that I would crave for this entire time,
To see you dead in the eye and shoot you in between the eyes. 

One strike was enough to make your firm steps stagger, 
As an alcoholic falls down on his bed, 
That strike from the shovel nearby brought you closer,
To the bed of eternal sleep that you had made for me. 

As I see you fall down from the railings, 
Waiting to be the meal for the scavengers, 
I could only fathom a life, 
A life which would be a fairy tale only if you hadn't crossed paths again. 

In Love with a Writer

In Love with a Writer

Fall in love with a writer,

They know how to keep the love alive,

Even if you are not,

People said.

I fell in love like how people do in stories,

Saw her near the bookstore with those big nerd glasses,

Trying to adjust her bags,

God! How beautiful she looked.

Just like a fresh page of a new book,

I just stood there transfixed to my place,

Wondering if she was for real or my mind playing games with me.

And then we met again,

Waiting for a train I stood at the station,

Saw you scribbling something on a parchment of paper you found,

Only for the wind to steal it away.

It flew into my path,

And we started talking,

Like the children following the piped piper's tune,

I was enchanted by your words.

Slowly and slowly we started hanging out,

I only was there to listen to your words,

And how beautiful you wrote,

You were my bestseller author and I was your favourite fan.

You kept me immortal in the tales you told,

And I was lucky to be there,

Today as I leave for a new path,

I can feel you around,

In that piece of paper that I keep in my wallet.

Hold On To Me

Hold On To Me

Lights now brighter than the sun,

With the drips near and the machine beeping,

People chattering around me,

Saying things that  I cannot understand. 

Then I see myself standing in a corridor,

All dark and not a speck of light, 

Cold as the Antarctic,

Prison cells as hot as a thousand suns. 

Wandering there I found a room,

A room which I thought was home,

Resembling to a place far suppressed in my memories,

Welcoming me inside was the ghost that haunted me. 

Guilt ridden and terrified I stood, 

Waiting for the scene to unfold,

The living hell that I had left,

Now had followed me through the doors of the unknown. 

Time moving at the pace of a snail,

Punishing my soul with the deepest fears from my past,

And there I stood trying to battle with them,

Only to fall deeper into wormhole that it was.

I stabbed him once and there I stabbed him for eternity,

Removing him from existence, 

Only to let him live in my mind,

Helplessly looking at me and yelling at me to go. 

Like decoding a labyrinth,

I staggered on my way,

Just to find an exit,

Only to be brought out from there by something, 

Hazy vision and a roaring headache,

I saw the people around me,

The defibrillator in the hands of one,

I woke up in a jerk only to rush.

With a bleeding wrist and a blood soaked shirt,

I ran to her,

Just to see her living like a machine,

A heartbeat replaced by a beep, 

I sat next to you, 

With your hands in mine,

Looking at you and asking you,

To hold on to me till eternity.

Gonna Get You

Gonna Get You

With the light from the street lamp flickering, 

Stood a shadow in the woods, 
Looking down the alley, 
As if he was searching for something. 

Staggering past the doors in the silence, 
There was something about the night,
Giving him a sense of completion,
Waiting for the end of the road.

Like a beat cop searching for a crook,
Checking every intersection,
The shadow gliding towards the darkness,
Reaching for his pocket to grab something.

Observing the look in the eyes,
A silver dagger clasped in his hands,
Marching forward towards someone, 
And like Poseidon thrusting his trident in his foe.

In one swift blow,
The silver of the dagger kissed the flesh,
With one down he moved forward,
Lurking past like a vulture looking for food.

Slowly his ghostly presence breaks the peace,
People looking for him on the street,
Yet in the darkness even the closest thing becomes invisible,
So does a shadow,

Outside a home, he stood, 
Looking in the well-lit house, 
Following her all the way, 
Just to have a glance, 

Like a spirit moving around,
For the one who forced him to fall, 
Now with the daylight breaking, 
He disappears leaving a sign behind,
Written in blood, as if shouting,
"I'm Gonna Get You".