The Promise

The Promise

As I sit by the river;
I think of the stories that this river has, 
Some sunk in the very depths, 
And some had floated. 

Let me tell you a tale;
Of a love story that sunk, 
With a few stories down in the depth of the rivers, 
Just like the pebbles that now rest at the bed. 

He was sitting in the park; 
Trying hard not to battle his mind, 
With the thoughts of his past haunting him, 
His eyes had laid eyes on something which had caught his eye. 

She sat there in front of him; 
Feeding the pigeons with an innocence in her eyes, 
But something was unique about her, 
That captivated his attention in her. 

The scars on her body had a story;
And the pain in his eyes were immense, 
The world around them seemed still, 
As their eyes were speaking. 

In the world where religions and caste; 
Colour and race were everything, 
They had fell in love with the just a sight, 
Ignoring the cynical stereotypes.

Guess it wasn't enough; 
With the world feeding on their souls, 
Trying to break their bodies, 
And the young souls into fragments. 

But luck had its way;
The lovers were distanced and the world came in, 
With the scars on her soul and the pain in his eyes, 
They were stolen from each other. 

After ten years;
They meet once again,
And the love still warm enough, 
this fragmented love story was complete, 
Only to see them holding their hands and breathing their last. 

They had fulfilled their promise; 
To be together in the end, 
When no one in their lives would matter, 
Only love being with them forever.

What If We Ruin It All

What If We Ruin It All

I had struggled to get hold of my life;

With the world acting like a planet full of sinners, 

I never thought my faith would ever be restored, 

And my heart would ever feel this way for someone. 

That winter morning was different;

While all the people were trying to find their staggered steps home, 

You were there looking like as perfect as a snowflake, 

Just like a fairy straight out of a young kids dream. 

I was mesmerised and inert to everything around me; 

We met the next day at a meeting, 

Who knew that fate could play games like this, 

And we would then be more than friends.

From the promises to never leave each other's side;

No matter how extreme it would be, 

I promised you a life full of hardships and hurdles, 

Only to reach us at the top. 

We had loved each other since years; 

But never accepted it and ignored the heart, 

Our hearts had been playing a game all together, 

While the souls chose to suffer. 

You were my only friend; 

Who tried to tame me down during my anxieties, 

And when I at a weak moment couldn't contain it, 
I told you I liked you but never admitted that I loved you.

And then you lashed out; 
it had been 8 years since we knew each other,
And you never told me how you felt, 
You relapsed and hugged me 

We shared a moment which we never should have;
Accepting how we felt only to be feared all our lives,
Asking ourselves one single question if,
What if we ruin it all. 

This Is What it Takes

This Is What It Takes

As today I take the stand;
and see you the opposite side,
Taking the blows for our failures, 
With every accusation I take.

I saw the shallowness in your eyes, 
The love we had fading into the smoke of doubt, 
Why did it had to be this way, 
In public airing our dirty laundry. 

I remember the first time we met each other, 
In the bar when I was surrounded with bodies, 
But was all alone in the sea of the crowd, 
You had me at that moment when you smiled at me.

Each day we couldn't let a day go by, 
Without talking to each other,
Both of us knew what we had was distinctive, 
Hours we used to spend with each other without a flinch. 

Now as years have passed, 
Our perfect fairytale shattered, 
The divorce was evident, 
But we tried to fight it. 

The hours of therapy down the drain, 
The late night dinners are just a fragment of our life, 
You had a total eclipse of my heart, 
Now the with the shadow disappearing. 

All I can think is how to keep you happy, 
To keep that dove like eyes to stop casting its spell upon me, 
You had taken everything from my soul to my body, 
And as we write the final chapter to our book. 

I am left here thinking, 
What I had done to transform the tender little heart, 
Poisoned with hatred, 
And as I see you go out of the court, 
Leaving me for one final time, 

You would know I would always love you, 
And to see that smile that won me over, 
I guess it had to be this way to see you happy, 
I guess this is what it takes. 

The Sunset

The Sunset

While the world slept;

A lost soul was waking up, 

To a world which was pure, 
With the future still waiting for you, 
Just you.

With the worldly logics and norms;
Beyond your understanding, 
With the spirit in you like a caged bird, 
You had to endure the norms and the protocols of this world. 

The bird in you took a blow;
Bleed till it couldn't raise its wings, 
You were there amongst us, 
Masquerading as something you were never meant to be, 

You always wanted to fly into the sunset;
With dreams in your eyes,
Lost in the clutter of protocols and rules,
Saw you flutter in frustration. 

The wearisome life you lived;
Took a turn when everything you work to be.
Became a reason for your collapse,
Thinking of you as something else. 

She fell in love with you; 
For the person you really were, 
She saw the bird in the cage, 
Choking on the person you were trying to masquerade as. 

You erupted upon what you had with her;
Feeling naked, 
Fathoming upon the very thought, 
That how could she see through you. 

Everything around you seemed grey; 
But slowly the shackles started to rust, 
And the bird saw a crack in the cage,
With one big blow it was unleashed to a new world.

With freedom being the new flavour;
Your colours started to fill this black and white world,
With destiny playing its best, 
You fly out to bring the one back.

Watching the bird fly out in the sunset;
You try to find her daily in your dreams,
As each day the sun rising, 
Your quest to find the one to be your companion cements.

She had to go;
Playing a role in your story, 
Just to set your soul free, 
And your dream alive. 

While you pondered about her whereabouts,
She was there torturing herself for leaving you, 
No mattered how hard she tried you never forgave her, 
One day there will come a time, 
When she would enter back your life, 
Just for you to tell the world another story. 

Colour My Heart

Hope

As December sets in; 

And the snow falling,

The green grassland turning white,

Couples holding hands, hugging with love in their eyes.

Here sitting comfortably in my home;

Watching the snow set itself, 

Thinking of each and every moment, 

That I had spent with her. 

She was everything to me;

Ever since I had laid eyes on her,

The world around me seem non existent without her,

Fate had never been too kind to me but that night it was.

I never thought we would ever cross paths;

But we did, 

You came into the party looking ravishing, 

Every set of eyes was fixated on you.

I knew I never had a chance with you;

But you did have a chance with me, 

You came to me and the magic happened,

From small talks to long walks in the evening. 

I was a convict and you were a sinner;

Who would have thought we were made for each other, 

Those big droopy eyes still capture my soul, 

Whenever I looked into it. 

And like that the magic passed;

You had conned me for my heart, 

And today as I sit with the tawny liquid in my glass, 

Sipping down the pain in my veins. 

As you had left me that day;

It wasn't only my heart that you stole, 

But it was more than that, 

You took away a part of me, 

As I think about you in my final moments;

I can sense you near me, 

Looking at me from the shadows of the night, 

Smiling at me giving me hope, 

That maybe one day we would reunite.

With hope in my eyes, 

I can see you guiding me, 

Telling me that this is the place where I give it all up, 

As for your love I have risked it all. 

Somebody's Me

Somebody's Me

With the time passing by 
And my mind running like a gazelle in a field 
Is held captive with your thoughts 
How could a person imprison the human mind 

With each passing moment 
I see my life in troubled waters 
With a trenchant storm waiting to feast on me 
Who had wondered that the world would change 

You came into my life 
When I stayed in gloom 
With the darkness being the fuel to my soul 
And then in the vortex of the storm 

A little rose that came into my life 
You tried to stop the storm consume me 
And had shown me the world of light 
A world so pure that vengeance and reprisal do not exist 

But then till how long does a volcano lay dormant
You promised to be by my side 
No matter where I belong 
You had kindled my soul 

Unleashing the demon in me to take control 
You left me in ashes thinking I would not survive
You were like gravity 
When you were in my life 

Now it is funny how my soul levitates 
Spellbound by your charm 
Trying to find you in the present 
While you are there in the past 

How could one person hold the key to your destruction 
And today as I sit here watching the world burn 
Trying to find you back and take my soul along with you 
I wonder if you wanted me to disappear 

And as I fight this final battle 
With the sword thirsty for blood
And eyes bloodshot 
Tears rolling down my face 

I ponder if this is what fate had in store for me 
As is imagine you watching me fighting against the world 
I hope you see the man who loved you 
And understand that there is somebody who still loves you more than himself 
That the somebody's me
    

Safe In My Hands

The Ruins

Life is a game of fate 
What you do is just left to fate 
But why leave everything to fate
While everyone are following the rest
Here we were trying hard to build our empire 

Happiness is something I am never comfortable with 
But when you came into my life 
It was bound to change the course of things as I knew it 
How strange it is when one becomes everything to you 

We had known each other since 12 years 
Stood by each other in times of peril 
Made way for the other to rise 
She was my bundle of happiness 

We had been the pillar of support for the other 
From the moments of despair to the times when all we wanted was to be left alone
You helped me in my success 
You had been with me when I was a no good thing and a bad asset to invest your time on 

But you never really cared 
For you everything that I had to go through 
You took my hand and made me walk through it 
Just to show me that you would be with me no matter what happens 

I was a prisoner of my thoughts 
With everything falling in place and the foundation set 
The world had recognized the efforts of a man 
But like drugs success also had a kick to it 

With money replacing the weed 
And McClellan oozing from my cabinet 
I had reached the height I wanted 
But at what cost 

She was always away from the limelight 
I had fought for her to keep her out of trouble 
As I knew what she would have done to save me 
I was ready to trade my soul for hers 

But who had ever imagined 
That one day, life would bring us here 
With what I had done to keep you out of jail 
And accidentally let my emotion take the better of me 

I left abruptly last night telling you 
That you knew I loved you 
Which brings us here today 
Seeing you clean your desk 
And knowing that I won't see you outside my office ever again 

My life went into overdrive 
With anger fueling me 
And not able to breathe, with sweaty palms and eyes bulging out 
I rushed to the wash basin to puke 

Only to see you leave me
Here I am looking at the empire we had built 
With the Glass Castle crumbling down 
I now remember that you had held me together 

The money and everything is not fun 
With you not around me 
With the fragments of my heart in my hand 
i realize that you were the only fortune I had 

Humanity

Gravity

She woke up like a winter's morning sunshine 

With the pudgy smell of the medicine and a light head 
She had no blood in her but only morphine running in her veins 
She was now a human dependent on machines

She wondered how she got here 
In the serene white background with the hustle and bustle 
Of the doctors and the visitors
Thinking of how she ends up in this vegetative state 

The frontal lobe damaged and her memory gone 
It was how her luck had it 
The world had nothing but sympathy for her 
But who knew what was going on in her head 

She stood tall 
Despite the state she was in 
She was born to survive 
Like the fox she knew that she would find a way 

Just after a few days 
The machines were replaced by people 
The morphine was replaced by grit 
She was destined to fight her fate 

She never recognized anyone 
But until one day when she saw him 
She remembered everything 
How she went through the torture 

He had been everything to her 
A friend, a guide and a confidante 
But who knew that he was the beast incarnated 
He was supposed to be her friend

He had mutilated the poor soul 
Harmed her mentally and physically 
To an extent that he threw her out of the moving car 
Never did he know that karma would bite him back 

She never forgave him 
For the hurt, the broken trust an the broken soul 
The angst and the frustration made her pull the trigger 
She slayed him the moment she had lost her control 

The poor soul 
Who knew what she had went trough 
Her body had endured the pain and the suffering 
With a peaceful mind she went away to a place where there was no right or wrong 

A place which had justice for all 
And punishments at all 
The judges were the supreme leaders 
And women were treated fair 

Alas it never was like that here 
It had everything that could mow down the hope and the humanity 

A friendly word out

A friendly word out

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Fade To Black

Fade To Black 

The dream of a million of people 

To reach the top of their field 

How many hardships they face 

To bring them closer to their dreams 

How crazy it is out their 

With everything in this life 

Becoming a roadblock for your road ahead 

But what if that roadblock was something else 

I stood there thinking I was pillar 
But little I knew that I was one of the roadblocks in your life
You had me at hello 
But hey life has a mean way to knock some sense 

I was at top of my game 
Becoming a man that I had dreamed of 
But when I met you 
Everything I had felt petty 

You were a small town girl 
Trying to find work 
And settle as fast as you could 
Fate had brought you to my doorstep 

You were panicky and fumbled every word 
But the honesty you had was refreshing
Who would have thought 
That you would have made me realize how empty I am 

You were the best I had ever met 
In this world where everyone won't leave a second to stab you 
You had made me leave out the mask I wore for others 
Just to let me have a look on who I was 

Yet there is something which doesn't last forever 
You had made me fall for you
And the very second I wanted to be special 
You chickened out 

How does it feel to get your heart broken again
I never thought I would fall back to the same place 
From where you had brought me out 
I loved you and gave you my heart and soul back 
For everything I had given you 

And as I sit here today 
With the glass by my side 
And the blood stained razor by my side 
I had a gash near my heart 

And as the drops of life 
Seep through for freedom 
And as I sleep, I see you in my nightmares 
Finally the last drop of freedom released 
And I am immortal in the books forever 

As the one who thought he had everything 
He lay down being the one who lost everything 
  

I'm With You

I'm With You 

With the cool breeze flowing 

The clouds also depart from their homes 

With tiny droplets falling from the sky 

I stand underneath them lost in my own world 

Wondering about how we met 

The circumstances when we were together and 

The memories that we lived during then 

How happiness can be spread from a single name 

We were kids when we first met 

Trying to irritate each other and hurt each other 

No one had a clue that we would have each other's back 

Ironical isn't it?

The very person that we want to hurt 

Becomes the very person who means the world to us 

I never thought to protect you 

When all you did was stab me in the back like Brutus 

People change is what I always believed in 

You proved me I was right to believe in you 

When I was low and had no support 

You showed up to help me out 

You had been there ever since then 

As fate would have it 

From friends to lovers we had transformed 

I loved you ever since that day when you said yes 

Time has flown away 

Like a free bird released from a cage 

So has our spirit which has flown away 

As we stay here holding each other 

As the flash came out of the muzzle 

We went to a new world 

With our lifeless bodies holding each other as our souls depart 

We stick by our promise that no matter what happens 

I am always with you 

Changed

Changed

Life has always been like this 

Testing you, trying to throw you down the stairs 

Isn't it ironical the very thing we think of

Which is our strength is the thing that brings us down 

She was like the first winter snow 

With her shy little smile and eyes that could win you over 

That silver tongued devil was an angel in disguise 

How beautiful she was 

She met in during my roughest time 

When I had been in ruins and covered in ashes 

Thinking of every battle that I had been to 

And the scars that I had 

I thought of her to be the healer of my wounds 

Yet she was way more than just a healer 

Never I had a clue that all my life 

I would be so wrong with you besides my side 

You broke me and shattered me mentally 

With each day I have lived without you seeming to be my last 

Each breath as poisonous as cyanide

How have I let my guards down 

You were one of most precious part of my life 

Yet you never waited for a second to think 

How will I be able to live without you 

All you did was just leave without saying goodbye 

What about the promises we had made 

Or was it the devil in disguise 

That took you away from my fate 

I thought everything in my life is permanent 

I forgot that everything you love 

Changed behind your back  

With you collecting yourself 

Life is preparing another soul to slaughter 

Phoenix

Phoenix

Ever wondered how hard it is 

To be on the top of the food chain 

The hours that you dwell 

Or the nights with no sleep 

Gosh how hard is it at the top 

With no personal life and how the world is 

You would always have a bulls-eye tagged on your back 

How rough the ride would have been 

But was the rough ride worth it 

Goddamn right it was 

From the nights of grinding to the lost holidays 

Did it bring him closer to the top

Life is all the same for everyone 

Yet we all differ 

The world is all the same 

But it is the hours we dwell that matter 

We get broken at times 

Broken and battered beyond repair

Lack of self belief has been the sight for others 

And the vultures lurking over our broken souls 

You have to be like the phoenix 

To learn how to crumble 

And to rise from the ashes with flair 

The mirror tells us the reality of who we are 

And how we landed up at the bottom 

The hunger and the thirst of success would hit them soon 

But would they be able to go through the pain like you did 

The pain and the blood soaked route you chose 

No one can go through 

Except for those who are in sheer desperation 

To topple the top of the food chain 

The kingdom that you aspire 

Is made of more than just bricks and mortars

With the will and the grit being the basic foundation 

And the blood and tears being the paint

Life is never easy to reach the top 

But isn't that the rule 

Either to hunt or be hunted 

Stitches

Stitches

The smell of blood 

And the pain of the cuts 

I have been beaten and battered 

But never hurt to an extent like this 

I had never been there to fight for you 

But this time it was different 

Never had I felt my emotions go astray like tonight 

The floodgates were washed away with the storm 

You came to me with a broken soul 

You just needed love 

But their was something about your aura 

that put me off my wagon 

The hurt and the pain in your eyes 

Pinched me in my heart 

Yet I couldn't say a word 

My mind was like a ferris wheel  

You had made me lower my guard 

And the unexpected happened 

With our hearts talking to each other

And our souls naked discovering

Your pain had now vanished and the heart lived on 

You were healed 

We humans have everything with us except one thing 

And that is timing 

I knew this time would come 
When the hurt and the pain would succumb the love
I had a feeling that this would hurt me 
As your final words echoed in my ears

I could sense you present everywhere 
Watching me as I had been tripping everywhere 
Being beaten and battered and mugged 
I am trying to leave this tunnel but All i see is blood all around 

As the stitches cover my face all I know 
Is how I would move on by erasing you from my mind 

Crawling Back To You

Crawling Back To You

The cold breeze and the moonlit skies 

How they used to be a friend of mine 

Those twinkling stars were a companion 

Of the days when I waited for you 

Last night was something 

With you trying to put everything on me 

Funny isn't it when all the time 

I had your back 

I saved you from trouble 

You took a moment and turned on me 

I wish I could have said things to you 

Yet I never did blame you for anything 

From the mishap of a life that I lived 

You came into my life 

Just to make me realize what love is 

A stone in place of a heart I always thought 

But there was something about you 

That won me over 

The ice cold palace that I once lived in 

Melted 

I worked hard to be forget about emotions 

But with the first sight of you I knew it was never gonna be long 

Until you had won my heart 

I had lost my emotions in a vortex 

Still you found it and placed it back 

You had been a mistake for me 

I always knew 

Even after that I stayed mystified

It had been a year 

And we couldn't fight it anymore 

We had been together for long the world would think 

But from our views it was way to long 

The love was replaced by venom 

And hatred seeped into our veins 

We were toxic for each other

You left me with everything in a mess 

With control being taken over by panic 

And my life slipping away into oblivion 

I can't understand what to do 

As I can see myself crawling back to you