The Deal

The Deal

The sound of the wind 

Hitting my windows and the leaves rustling 

I sat on my sofa with a glass in my hand 

The amber colored liquid it contained

With smoke all around me 

It felt like winter again 

the cold wind caressing me

Reminding of something which I once had 

The cold spray welcomed me 
As I stepped out of my house 
Wondering about those memories 
Which moved me from my very foundation 

I remember you 
How you came into my life 
And turning a monotonous life of a vagabond 
Into a direction which made me who I am 

I reached the zenith of my life 
All because of you 
Yet I remember you fondly whilst all the others are not even remembered 
That day when you met me 

You ignited my energies 
I never realized how much caliber I had 
You were the most kindest soul I had ever met 
Yet there are times you wish never existed 

That day I made a deal 
That no matter what I am I would protect you 
I reached my peak and here I sit with a glass of Jack 
Deciding your fate in our firm 

I would step down 
As I made the deal 
To give you something in return for what you did for me 
Because you had given me everything I ever dream of 

I had quit 
Just to protect you 
And now I am just a mere memory for you

Sometimes a few mentors are like family.

Withering Life

Complicated 

When I was born, 

You adored me more than everything,

I became your world and you became mine, 

You held my fingers when I grew up,

You had been there as pillar for me

From my mistakes to bloopers 

You were always there to take care of it 

How funny life has been 

I grew up under your shadow

Now here I stand 

With no idea of who I am 

While the world lives in happiness 

I am here broken 

Thinking of the words I shouldn't have said

About our fight that we had 

Pride it was that brought us then 

From the straight A student 

I sit with a cigarette in my hand 

Trying to get hold of myself 

Just not to give you a hint of what is going on with me 

You made me into who I am 

So why this distance 

Because I fell in love???

Or was it that you couldn't bare me moving out 

I tried to reason with you dad 

And look where it has brought us to 

She left me in ruins, with nothing but a pack of cigarettes and a six pack 

To think about what I have done wrong 

Where were you when I needed you the most 

When your son was in the wrong company 

Or when he needed support 

Instead of the smokes and booze, you could have helped 

It was pride that separated us then 

And love that held it together 

With the love now being lost 

You are in your own mystical world 

While I suffer in peace  

Forever

Forever

Do you remember the importance of today?

Do you remember us that night 

Working the night on that project 

I wish I knew that sometimes forever is not forever 

You had been with me 

Helping me and picking me up from ruins 

We were like a team 

Until that fateful night when I lost you 

Never did I think 

Life can be so short 

You had been my definition of happiness 

Yet something held me back 

Panic has now set itself in me 

With every breath that I take feeling like a thousand thorns 

I am lost in the sands of time today 

With my shouts echoing in the vortex

With you saying you leaving me 

You still mean the world to me 

No matter where ever you are 

Or how deep you are in trouble 

The world has made me hard today 

But whenever I set my eyes on you 

I lose my control and the world seems to collide 

I know that you know how I feel about you 

Caring makes you weak I always thought 

See where it has brought me today 

Here on my knees, a broken ghost of a man 

I know you will comeback soon 

or maybe I carry this facade of happiness for way too long 

If you live a lie long enough, it starts becoming the truth

Her

Her

She was a masterpiece in her own way 

Being imperfectly perfect 

Never had I seen a girl like her 

With her tiny quirks and weird slang 

Wonderful she always was 

Trying to help everyone who needed her help 

Leaving her own work aside 

She truly came out of the story books I guess 

Her smile and her coy looks 

Won her hearts 

I remember her vividly 

Ah! God what a memory 

We met in college 

She was dressed as an angel 

That very day I lost my heart to you 

It had been eons since I felt like this 

She made me feel complete 

And her eyes had me mystified

Her words were like music and 

Her smile made go to a new dimension 

As I was lost in my own little world 

I could see the empty chair next to me 

Was this a dream 

Or a story that was meant to be true

Crossroads Of Life

Crossroads Of Life

Life has always been a mystery 

With everything you think of 

Being something it isn't 

A tale in the making or a travesty you wished to avoid 

Let me tell you a story 

Of a person who had it all 

Yet he had nothing 

A life filled with purpose yet incomplete 

He lived his life 

As all the youths did 

Working up ways to reach a zenith which only god can gift 

Yet he had a mind which was one of a kind 

He had an aura that oozed of confidence 

It was like it would be a matter of time when the world would know him 

As fate would have it

Time was not the only thing that changed 

The boy was now the man he wished he was 

With the change now being replaced by checkbooks

Funny how life is when all you have worked for is the money and the power 

But there is something that makes it incomplete 

She was always a support for him 

Pushing him to the limits for him to achieve his dream 

A long lost memory she was to him 

Until that fateful night she appeared in his life again 

He wanted her to have an empire 

A life with the means to live 

She knew it was a mythical place yet she stood by her side 

But as life would have it some stories are left with an abrupt ending 

Today as she leaves 

With her bags in her hand and tears in her eyes 

He is at crossroads of life 

Whether to stop her and crumble his dream or to sit there and let her go.

Love and Other Things

Love and Other Things

The rain outside makes me fall in love 

All over again 

With each drop that kisses my cheeks 

I could only think about your lips pecking my cheeks 

It had been years since we were married 

As fate had made us for one another 

We had liked each other

Ever since we had met 

We just clicked 

Or so our parents thought 

Getting us married

For once we thought that this would be nice 

Best friends married to each other 

Yet there are some speed bumps 

That made us side track from our paradise 

When He came 

He was an old flame 

Slithering his way with venom in our lives 

Destroying our holy paradise 

She fell for him 

Making me realize what life is 

Waking me up from my sleep 

And removing the facade 

I knew that she would never have those feelings for me 

I was her best friend after all 

I should have known 

Of her feelings 

I took her away 

For a day just to tell know if he is what she wants 

She had tears trickling down and there was my answer 

She sat silently in the car 

As we approached a strange set up 

With the church ready for a marriage 

I Stopped and took her inside from the storm

For a surprise, with him inside holding a ring and kneeling before my life 

I smiled and left 

Giving my best friend a shot of what was true happiness 

Misty eyed she hugged me and pecked me 

Thanking me for resurrecting her soul 

Bloodstream

Bloodstream

With the night being silent and dull 

It had a mysterious aura around it 

With the owl hooting in the dead of the night 

And the nocturnal creatures crawling out of their sleep 

With the howling of dogs 

And shouting from the clubs with their ear deafening music 

But there was something hellish about the night 

With the ghouls roaming around lurking for a new prey 

I sat there when it happened 

When the grim reaper came for his prey 

While she had no inkling of what the future had 

Poor young soul 

We were in love since half a decade 

Ahh the romance that we had 

Young college pass outs we were when we first met 

Now we were just a couple who couldn't fathom life without the other 

It was our anniversary that night 

When we were on our way back 

Walking underneath the moonlit night 

When suddenly my vision was clouded by a heavy blow 

And bang I saw you hit 

And again a shot to your head and you crumbled down 

Staring at me with those life less eyes 

And your blood kissing me on my cheek 

I miss you every second when 

You were an innocent victim of a crime 

I still do our ritual even today I know you are not with me anymore 

But the memories live on