I'm With You

I'm With You 

With the cool breeze flowing 

The clouds also depart from their homes 

With tiny droplets falling from the sky 

I stand underneath them lost in my own world 

Wondering about how we met 

The circumstances when we were together and 

The memories that we lived during then 

How happiness can be spread from a single name 

We were kids when we first met 

Trying to irritate each other and hurt each other 

No one had a clue that we would have each other's back 

Ironical isn't it?

The very person that we want to hurt 

Becomes the very person who means the world to us 

I never thought to protect you 

When all you did was stab me in the back like Brutus 

People change is what I always believed in 

You proved me I was right to believe in you 

When I was low and had no support 

You showed up to help me out 

You had been there ever since then 

As fate would have it 

From friends to lovers we had transformed 

I loved you ever since that day when you said yes 

Time has flown away 

Like a free bird released from a cage 

So has our spirit which has flown away 

As we stay here holding each other 

As the flash came out of the muzzle 

We went to a new world 

With our lifeless bodies holding each other as our souls depart 

We stick by our promise that no matter what happens 

I am always with you 

Changed

Changed

Life has always been like this 

Testing you, trying to throw you down the stairs 

Isn't it ironical the very thing we think of

Which is our strength is the thing that brings us down 

She was like the first winter snow 

With her shy little smile and eyes that could win you over 

That silver tongued devil was an angel in disguise 

How beautiful she was 

She met in during my roughest time 

When I had been in ruins and covered in ashes 

Thinking of every battle that I had been to 

And the scars that I had 

I thought of her to be the healer of my wounds 

Yet she was way more than just a healer 

Never I had a clue that all my life 

I would be so wrong with you besides my side 

You broke me and shattered me mentally 

With each day I have lived without you seeming to be my last 

Each breath as poisonous as cyanide

How have I let my guards down 

You were one of most precious part of my life 

Yet you never waited for a second to think 

How will I be able to live without you 

All you did was just leave without saying goodbye 

What about the promises we had made 

Or was it the devil in disguise 

That took you away from my fate 

I thought everything in my life is permanent 

I forgot that everything you love 

Changed behind your back  

With you collecting yourself 

Life is preparing another soul to slaughter 

Phoenix

Phoenix

Ever wondered how hard it is 

To be on the top of the food chain 

The hours that you dwell 

Or the nights with no sleep 

Gosh how hard is it at the top 

With no personal life and how the world is 

You would always have a bulls-eye tagged on your back 

How rough the ride would have been 

But was the rough ride worth it 

Goddamn right it was 

From the nights of grinding to the lost holidays 

Did it bring him closer to the top

Life is all the same for everyone 

Yet we all differ 

The world is all the same 

But it is the hours we dwell that matter 

We get broken at times 

Broken and battered beyond repair

Lack of self belief has been the sight for others 

And the vultures lurking over our broken souls 

You have to be like the phoenix 

To learn how to crumble 

And to rise from the ashes with flair 

The mirror tells us the reality of who we are 

And how we landed up at the bottom 

The hunger and the thirst of success would hit them soon 

But would they be able to go through the pain like you did 

The pain and the blood soaked route you chose 

No one can go through 

Except for those who are in sheer desperation 

To topple the top of the food chain 

The kingdom that you aspire 

Is made of more than just bricks and mortars

With the will and the grit being the basic foundation 

And the blood and tears being the paint

Life is never easy to reach the top 

But isn't that the rule 

Either to hunt or be hunted 

Stitches

Stitches

The smell of blood 

And the pain of the cuts 

I have been beaten and battered 

But never hurt to an extent like this 

I had never been there to fight for you 

But this time it was different 

Never had I felt my emotions go astray like tonight 

The floodgates were washed away with the storm 

You came to me with a broken soul 

You just needed love 

But their was something about your aura 

that put me off my wagon 

The hurt and the pain in your eyes 

Pinched me in my heart 

Yet I couldn't say a word 

My mind was like a ferris wheel  

You had made me lower my guard 

And the unexpected happened 

With our hearts talking to each other

And our souls naked discovering

Your pain had now vanished and the heart lived on 

You were healed 

We humans have everything with us except one thing 

And that is timing 

I knew this time would come 
When the hurt and the pain would succumb the love
I had a feeling that this would hurt me 
As your final words echoed in my ears

I could sense you present everywhere 
Watching me as I had been tripping everywhere 
Being beaten and battered and mugged 
I am trying to leave this tunnel but All i see is blood all around 

As the stitches cover my face all I know 
Is how I would move on by erasing you from my mind 

Crawling Back To You

Crawling Back To You

The cold breeze and the moonlit skies 

How they used to be a friend of mine 

Those twinkling stars were a companion 

Of the days when I waited for you 

Last night was something 

With you trying to put everything on me 

Funny isn't it when all the time 

I had your back 

I saved you from trouble 

You took a moment and turned on me 

I wish I could have said things to you 

Yet I never did blame you for anything 

From the mishap of a life that I lived 

You came into my life 

Just to make me realize what love is 

A stone in place of a heart I always thought 

But there was something about you 

That won me over 

The ice cold palace that I once lived in 

Melted 

I worked hard to be forget about emotions 

But with the first sight of you I knew it was never gonna be long 

Until you had won my heart 

I had lost my emotions in a vortex 

Still you found it and placed it back 

You had been a mistake for me 

I always knew 

Even after that I stayed mystified

It had been a year 

And we couldn't fight it anymore 

We had been together for long the world would think 

But from our views it was way to long 

The love was replaced by venom 

And hatred seeped into our veins 

We were toxic for each other

You left me with everything in a mess 

With control being taken over by panic 

And my life slipping away into oblivion 

I can't understand what to do 

As I can see myself crawling back to you  

The Deal

The Deal

The sound of the wind 

Hitting my windows and the leaves rustling 

I sat on my sofa with a glass in my hand 

The amber colored liquid it contained

With smoke all around me 

It felt like winter again 

the cold wind caressing me

Reminding of something which I once had 

The cold spray welcomed me 
As I stepped out of my house 
Wondering about those memories 
Which moved me from my very foundation 

I remember you 
How you came into my life 
And turning a monotonous life of a vagabond 
Into a direction which made me who I am 

I reached the zenith of my life 
All because of you 
Yet I remember you fondly whilst all the others are not even remembered 
That day when you met me 

You ignited my energies 
I never realized how much caliber I had 
You were the most kindest soul I had ever met 
Yet there are times you wish never existed 

That day I made a deal 
That no matter what I am I would protect you 
I reached my peak and here I sit with a glass of Jack 
Deciding your fate in our firm 

I would step down 
As I made the deal 
To give you something in return for what you did for me 
Because you had given me everything I ever dream of 

I had quit 
Just to protect you 
And now I am just a mere memory for you

Sometimes a few mentors are like family.

Withering Life

Complicated 

When I was born, 

You adored me more than everything,

I became your world and you became mine, 

You held my fingers when I grew up,

You had been there as pillar for me

From my mistakes to bloopers 

You were always there to take care of it 

How funny life has been 

I grew up under your shadow

Now here I stand 

With no idea of who I am 

While the world lives in happiness 

I am here broken 

Thinking of the words I shouldn't have said

About our fight that we had 

Pride it was that brought us then 

From the straight A student 

I sit with a cigarette in my hand 

Trying to get hold of myself 

Just not to give you a hint of what is going on with me 

You made me into who I am 

So why this distance 

Because I fell in love???

Or was it that you couldn't bare me moving out 

I tried to reason with you dad 

And look where it has brought us to 

She left me in ruins, with nothing but a pack of cigarettes and a six pack 

To think about what I have done wrong 

Where were you when I needed you the most 

When your son was in the wrong company 

Or when he needed support 

Instead of the smokes and booze, you could have helped 

It was pride that separated us then 

And love that held it together 

With the love now being lost 

You are in your own mystical world 

While I suffer in peace  

Forever

Forever

Do you remember the importance of today?

Do you remember us that night 

Working the night on that project 

I wish I knew that sometimes forever is not forever 

You had been with me 

Helping me and picking me up from ruins 

We were like a team 

Until that fateful night when I lost you 

Never did I think 

Life can be so short 

You had been my definition of happiness 

Yet something held me back 

Panic has now set itself in me 

With every breath that I take feeling like a thousand thorns 

I am lost in the sands of time today 

With my shouts echoing in the vortex

With you saying you leaving me 

You still mean the world to me 

No matter where ever you are 

Or how deep you are in trouble 

The world has made me hard today 

But whenever I set my eyes on you 

I lose my control and the world seems to collide 

I know that you know how I feel about you 

Caring makes you weak I always thought 

See where it has brought me today 

Here on my knees, a broken ghost of a man 

I know you will comeback soon 

or maybe I carry this facade of happiness for way too long 

If you live a lie long enough, it starts becoming the truth